My moment of pushing towards a positive vibe and a strong optimism came from the most unexpected corners of life. Those were the days of anxiety, struggle, and fight for survival and bottlenecks at every turn in life.
In those vulnerable circumstances, one gets pushed to a state of negativity, closed and absence from social life. However strong, emotionally balanced and educated, intelligent and well behaved, some depressing circumstances make you forget what you are. It was a day of these dominant factors. I was working in Raheja Towers in Mount Road, Chennai; one of the most architecturally beautiful buildings of Chennai. I was driven with all emotions that would have succumbed me unknowingly.
I went to the 9th floor of the building and sat down staring at the passers-by in the road nearby. The steps were vacant and there was no one around. The loneliness was what I felt was the need of the hour. I did not realize how depressing it can make a person. I did not eat that afternoon and was just wanting to kill the hours, not wanting to go home after my shift got over. I was not happy to go home and face the negative people who created toxic images in my life. I wanted to be left alone. Left in my own world of silence and oblivion. To an extrovert person like me, this was the best self-punishment for not being positive.
Suddenly I heard loud noises and laughter coming from the lift adjacent to the staircase. I was so frustrated on that noise for spoiling my silent afternoon. I walked to the lift in anger, to see who the hell are the people who are disturbing my so called ‘peace’. In less than fraction of a minute, my anger flew off. That’s the first time I saw Siddharth Jeykumar, happily smiling and laughing loud.
Siddharth fighting celebral palsy achieved greater heights where most of the people of his condition would have been affected by the sadness and demotivation of their own people and family. Sidh had a totally motivating family whose main purpose was to ensure that Sidh lives in comfort, achieves what children of his condition find it hard and to get him to education and employment in the main stream definitely would not have been an easy journey.
I saw my close friend and colleague with him in the lift and I jumped into the lift without a second thought. They were laughing that they forgot to get down at 7th floor where the doc checking team works and they decided to play up and down in the lift. Giggling all the way they all went down the lift to the ground floor and Sidh was cracking jokes all the while. His positive energy was wide spread and it honestly lifted me from the sense of loss to the sense of positiveness. I decided to take my life in my stride, my control and in my choice.
If you leave your life in the hands of others, and decision making for others to take for you, then you will be at loss only. The moment you smile away your grief, feel that you are born this way to prove yourself and be sure of God’s plans for you, you will leave all regrets outside the door. For that is where the garbage is left every day. Why the hell do we carry the garbage in our heads inside our homes and hearts? You don’t have choice for few relationships in life, but you can always decide how you want to handle that relationship. Keeping the bitter one’s away may be initially tough; but that would make you feel better and happy in the long run.
Sidh without knowing touched my life in a strange positive way. He showed me that no matter what, life is precious to be losing in regrets, fear, anger and past. Looking ahead and learning from past, cherishing what we have than what we want will make our lives more meaningful. We may not be rich to be the country’s biggest philanthropists. But you can give yourself, few things that don’t cost anything but hope and optimistic thoughts. You can give yourself happiness, hard work paving way to success, self-esteem and determination making you successful.
Thank you Sidh…for you made me look back at life and cherish the best I had. You inspired me to look forward, be positive, be optimistic about life and looking forward at future with hope and admiration and cherish the joy of living, giving and celebrating life, the way it has to be.