An ode to my future

9 April 2015

An ode to my future

Oh my dear future,

Here I come to you

Embracing with a smile

Asking you for peace

Stumbled did I many times

But that’s all in the bygones

I look upon to walk head high

With hope and honest thought

You will hold the pieces

Of goodness that I wish

With it my happy times

And my daughter’s dreams

You will see me calm

Gaining with you wisdom

To keep aging with grace

And behold my trust in self

Future, not just another day

You are my friend to share

All my remaining life

To shine and surrender

Will not bring into you

The garbage I leave behind

I will hold you in esteem

With confidence and truth

One day, I will hold them

My beautiful grandchildren

Will pamper them more

And prune them to be kind

I will stop being to myself wild

Take life slowly as it comes

Want to take things in soft tide

Will put down the smoking fumes

I will give up on few things

That I need not bring into you

The thoughts of vengeance

Rock solid memories of grief

I want to roll over the mat

Laugh with legs up like a child

As I grow old with pepper spray

My thoughts go like kid too

Am sure to wear the favorite skirts

And sit in the beach writing poems

Watching my grandchildren play

And building castles of their dreams

Both my husband and I will go fragile

Yet we will not let our spirits die

We will still rule our world in joy

May be with the walking sticks as toys

Would love to take our retired lives

Amidst the serene green farm house

That I would surely one day build

And have my own dogs and cats around

We will walk slowly but arms in around

Just like we do today too, but smaller steps

Will still pick a stone and throw

In the brooks that will run aside

Age coupled with the present stress

May make my body a reservoir of diseases

Yet, I know for sure, I will have him

Giving me medicines and care on time

I will still smile, keeping all pains away

Will ask for a movie date with popcorn

Love calling myself a sugar factory

Yet, would love to cheat-treat myself

A day will come, soon if not far

When I will put the board with pride

Of my daughter’s career that she makes

And will look for her to come back from work

Will jump in joy, the day she becomes a bride

Ensure that she has the best wedding

A good loving charming husband

And a sweet home to call her future home

Future, honestly, I will be not the same

Without her, my baby, with me around

But I will know for sure, that she is happy

Where ever she is in her life of her own

He and I will do what little things we can

Giving back to us is always a joy and fun

Not sure what I will leave behind in this world

But for sure, some goodness to be cherished

I will sleep in my eternal rest, with no fears

Will not end this life in any undue tears

I had enough of all of them in the frenzy past

I will go to the other world, in sheer happy note!

Celebrate Helplessness :-) :-) :-)

Date: 8 April 2015

Celebrate Helplessness!

Helplessness is an honest feeling

When finding solutions is hard to find

Being euphoric will keep us at peace

When situation confront us on face

It is normal to grieve when we are helpless

Can be a near one’s death or disease

A struggle with addiction to overcome

Or being tired with everything around

Feeling powerless and absolute helpless

When decisions made go wrong and stale

Tired of trying to bring in some sense

Failed besides the advised cautions and care

Times befall on with wringing despair

Trying to pick up or wind up threads of life

Hope snatched away and knotted up

Thrown asunder and pushed us scared

 That’s the time to think strong

And imagine that this just doesn’t exist

Despite the best efforts, if we fail

Situations refuse to correct in trial

It is general to grieve endlessly

Years of battling and agonizing

Helpless is a stark reminder

That life is just not in our control

Yes, the game is played by Life all along

We merely allow ourselves to be played with!

This realization is an awakening moment

Intensely private moment of self-discovery

 

Call it enlightenment, a period of glory

Above all the education and upbringing

It is the honest belief that we are in control

Will make us celebrate the helplessness

When situations refuse to listen to us

We try, cry, lament and kick around

Fail, try again, kick again, scream and suffer

Agonize, give up and come again to try!

After umpteen attempts, if need may be!

Somewhere down the lane of constant hope

We shall regain the control of our life

As if the writing on the wall that shouts and say

Smile!  Relax!  Life’s in Charge!

Allowing our self to be played with life

Is not inaction or resignation

It is acceptance and humble submission

 

 

It is just saying that I can do

Of what we think we can just do

And go about doing what we must

Without ranting around and grieving

It is celebration of killing our ego

Helplessness is actually a great feeling

That makes us to stay on top and control

And let go the things that you just can’t control

Helplessness leads to understanding oneself

To break away the tangles of mind and be at peace

Who are we to go against the Nature’s will!

Than remain spectators of events of destiny

Though helplessness begins with sorrow and grief

Once we are aware and awake, replacing acceptance

Life take away transient grief and gives permanent peace

So why lament, kick, cry, scream and grieve?

Enjoy the cosmic process of lesson to surrender

There is great joy in this surrender than resist

Once accept, humbly submit, we will exult!

For we emerge with beautiful inner peace

We need to experience this to believe it

Just take the next situation that comes your way

Think differently than get agitated and helpless

Tell to self, to let it take you, in silence

Nothing wrong in taking a long silent drive

Making your own personal space

Cry or scream if you want all alone

But let the courage in you overall win

Enjoy the feeling of new peace embracing

Making you feel better and wanting it more

Push yourself to true prayerful state

For it makes you part of the mighty universe

Thus, accepting helplessness

Celebrating egoless-ness

In every moment of life

Makes life at peace and bliss!