Keeping the villians away!

Thunderstruck, just not alone

Had all the toxic people around’

Shouting at me and me at them

Felt like pushing them from the cliff;

Or me jumping off from the grief!

Reaching the place where I am

The journey was full of thorns’

Sleepless nights and physical strain;

Mental stress and emotional drain

Crossed did I, every damn dirty turn!

 

 Endured self, focusing on one single goal

To make my life’ just the way I want’

As I pened my eyes, I saw them coming

Wide open like demons in my life

Chasing me into the wilder tribes!

Looked like people who would stray

Ready to rupture and swallow me

Forcing me to ignore the angels in my life

Who made it colorful and picture perfect?

Useless words away from my blessed home!

Clinging on to the dirt of their lives

Like a garbage bag just refusing to leave

Get away, ugly people, from my life!!

Without you, I am at the highest peace

Every time I shine bright and high!

You come into my life, toxins of life

Just to ensure that I agitate within

Yet, honest to myself, I will fight

A brave and winning battle again

I can raise again, above you all!

To show that your stupid deeds

Will not affect me in and out

For few hours, I may not be myself

But the courage with which I was raised

I know for sure, I will raise again!!!

To shine, bright, above all the fight

I will not end this journey of life

But will end the relationships I had

With you, most useless people in life

That I ever destined to have unknown!!!

If curses are proved right and straight

I would not wish them on your children

For what I don’t take from you, is all yours

Your bad deeds and bad thoughts

That I strongly refuse to take anymore!!

Good bye, dirty toxic people in my life

I am good and great without you!

Thanks to angels in my life,

My mother, my siblings and my man

Above all, my apple in my eye

My friends who cheer me through

And my passions that I hold true!!

 

  

Togetherness - A way of celebrating life.

Togetherness.  One of the most beautiful feeling and most loving words in the world.  It means unity, relationship, happiness, bonding and being together.   Many things unite people in the world.  Togetherness is wide spread in families, teams and society.  We see it in religion, states and countries.  People unite for they have something in common.  Be it a blood relationship, friendship, classmates, colleagues at work, neighbors,   sports team, clubs or those united in some cause.

Grief unites people.  Sometimes a tragedy binds people more than any other thing.  It is only during the desperate times, that we look for the company of people who can understand our feelings.  Who can be with us, protecting our emotional balance, intellectual ability and physical well-being, comes as a rescue in times of grief or pain.     Only in those moments of desperation and vulnerability, we get a chance to recognize who are the real people in our life.  It is only during the moments of anxiety, we realize how sooner we get the company of the people who really care and share our joys and sorrows.

I went to Nashville for training in 2010.  The travel from LA was not tiresome.  But my excitement of being in the music city of the world, anxiety of visiting a new client and same time, wanting to visit Elvis Presley in Graceland were all making me restless.   Above all, I get a mail popped up telling me about a team mate passing away with kidney failure.  Mind was restless and body got tired by evening.  I took the cab back to the Marriott Hotel from office.   The new team was too good and client was very accommodated.

Mixed thoughts…  In a jerk, I got out of the car, slipped on the wet floor and went straight face down to the ground and hit the rocky surface breaking my jaws, teeth, specs and bruises all over.  It was a kind of a miracle that I survived for there was so much of bleeding.  New city, absolutely no known people than the new client office and all alone.  I was rushed to emergency, being there for 5 hours helplessly in pain and plastic surgeon working on my face, setting my jaw and leave the dentist back in LA to take care of my broken teeth, I felt lost.  Physical pain and emotional fear of being alone in such a state was quite a traumatic time to manage. 

The minute I mentioned about this accident to my husband, he was very concerned.  He wanted to fly back immediately to Nashville but I stopped him saying that my daughter will be alone in LA.   I went back to work slowly the next day afternoon with stitches all around my face.   That’s when I realized how blessed I am.  Team members from Argentina who also came for the training with me to Nashville and also the client were very supportive.   Strangers became friends to share my pain and comfort me by ordering soft liquid food and taking care of me during the 3 days of training and till I got back to the airport to take the flight to LA.   

The world is so considerate to human pain.  People stared at me in shock in the plane, at the same showed me consideration to help with my luggage and food.  When I reached LA airport and got out of Burbank, my man came running to me and gave me a big bear hug.  That’s when I cried first time since the accident.   He pampered me next 15 days taking care of me like a baby.  Making food, helping me with my work, keeping me at comfort in travel from Glendale to Woodlands and also my errands to both the dentist and surgeon who worked on my stitches on the faces and slowly removed one by one.   It took me several turns to the doctor before I complete full recovered.   Prayers and candles continued for my recovery in the Glendale Church of Brethren.  That’s when I realized, that world is still of people with humanity.  We are also blessed to be in the world where there is care and concern.  Love and affection.  

The optimism and belief in the world comes from the togetherness in times of joys and sorrows.  In that way, I am truly blessed to have my husband who dons various hats to make my life comfortable and happy.  He pampers me like a dad, show unconditional love as a husband, behaves and demands like a son,  hears to my unending stories like a friend,  always stays next to me like twin and joins in all my crazy things like a partner in crime; be it running, playing, singing, social work or just having a lazy drink and relaxing on a Saturday night.  He is just there.  In a beautiful togetherness for a lifetime.

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#LookUpStories: Moment of Optimism and Hope for the Future :-) :-) :-)

My moment of pushing towards a positive vibe and a strong optimism came from the most unexpected corners of life.   Those were the days of anxiety, struggle, and fight for survival and bottlenecks at every turn in life.   

In those vulnerable circumstances, one gets pushed to a state of negativity, closed and absence from social life.    However strong, emotionally balanced and educated, intelligent and well behaved, some depressing circumstances make you forget what you are.   It was a day of these dominant factors.  I was working in Raheja Towers in Mount Road, Chennai; one of the most architecturally beautiful buildings of Chennai.  I was driven with all emotions that would have succumbed me unknowingly.   

I went to the 9^th floor of the building and sat down staring at the passers-by in the road nearby.  The steps were vacant and there was no one around.   The loneliness was what I felt was the need of the hour.  I did not realize how depressing it can make a person.   I did not eat that afternoon and was just wanting to kill the hours, not wanting to go home after my shift got over.  I was not happy to go home and face the negative people who created toxic images in my life.   I wanted to be left alone.  Left in my own world of silence and oblivion.  To an extrovert person like me, this was the best self-punishment for not being positive.

Suddenly I heard loud noises and laughter coming from the lift adjacent to the staircase.  I was so frustrated on that noise for spoiling my silent afternoon.  I walked to the lift in anger, to see who the hell are the people who are disturbing my so called ‘peace’.    In less than fraction of a minute, my anger flew off.   That’s the first time I saw Siddharth Jeykumar, happily smiling and laughing loud.    

Siddharth fighting celebral palsy achieved greater heights where most of the people of his condition would have been affected by the sadness and demotivation of their own people and family.  Sidh had a totally motivating family whose main purpose was to ensure that Sidh lives in comfort, achieves what children of his condition find it hard and to get him to education and employment in the main stream definitely would not have been an easy journey.  

I saw my close friend and colleague with him in the lift and I jumped into the lift without a second thought.  They were laughing that they forgot to get down at 7^th floor where the doc checking team works and they decided to play up and down in the lift.  Giggling all the way they all went down the lift to the ground floor and Sidh was cracking jokes all the while.   His positive energy was wide spread and it honestly lifted me from the sense of loss to the sense of positiveness.  I decided to take my life in my stride, my control and in my choice.

If you leave your life in the hands of others, and decision making for others to take for you, then you will be at loss only.   The moment you smile away your grief, feel that you are born this way to prove yourself and be sure of God’s plans for you, you will leave all regrets outside the door.  For that is where the garbage is left every day. Why the hell do we carry the garbage in our heads inside our homes and hearts?   You don’t have choice for few relationships in life, but you can always decide how you want to handle that relationship.  Keeping the bitter one’s away may be initially tough; but that would make you feel better and happy in the long run.

Sidh without knowing touched my life in a strange positive way.  He showed me that no matter what, life is precious to be losing in regrets, fear, anger and past.  Looking ahead and learning from past, cherishing what we have than what we want will make our lives more meaningful.  We may not be rich to be the country’s biggest philanthropists.  But you can give yourself, few things that don’t cost anything but hope and optimistic thoughts.   You can give yourself happiness, hard work paving way to success, self-esteem and determination making you successful.   

Thank you Sidh…for you made me look back at life and cherish the best I had.  You inspired me to look forward, be positive, be optimistic about life and looking forward at future with hope and admiration and cherish the joy of living, giving and celebrating life, the way it has to be.

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#StartANewLife :Meet The New Housing: A small decision towards a big change....towards building 'Life'

Marriage is one of the most beautiful phases in a woman’s life.  This is one period of a girl’s life where she blossoms from being a girl to a complete woman and motherhood.  Like all girls, I also had my own set of dreams.  Dreams of happily ever after.   However, reality hit me big time.  

Within the first 24 hours of my marriage, I had to face the toughest situation a girl can be pushed into.  My husband on our first night, sat quietly with sweat on his face and fear in his eyes.  Usually it will be other way round. Yet, I have taken the first step and spoke to him telling him that we will first be friends.    

In a typical arranged marriage set up with having several years difference between us, this was an obvious moments of anxiety to both of us.   However, slowly and softly,he started to speak.  His first few lines of confession that he was mental disturbed and suffers from schizophrenia (I was hearing this word first time in life) was absolutely confusing. Forget about the fact that his parents forced him into this marriage or he was not willing for marriage at all and above all, they have hidden this fact from me and my family.  The damage is done. And to me!  

The road ahead is unknown.   But one thing is for sure.  It is not going to be a smooth ride whatever way I try.  I had one other option.  Get out of the room then and there, throw away the one day old scared thread on his parents’ face for having played with a girl’s life and walk out of the marriage and let this man who is one day old husband have his own fate.   That looked like the easiest option. 

However, challenges to me is not new.  I saw my dad dying in my arms when I was 15.  I saw the society shunning on us for having all girls at home and then I presiding over his funeral and finally doing his final rites.  This is a bit more.  For what I need to rebuild the whole thing here is ‘LIFE’

Just out of teens, and college, graduated with a rank, I had the best of upbringing by my parents and grandmother.  I decided to take this marriage as my next challenge.  I know it is the boldest
decision that I can possibly take.  Which means that I am taking over the responsibility of our livelihood for rest of my life, and it also means that I am taking over the responsibility of an unstable man also for rest of my life.   Not sure, how I am going to build my life, but I strongly felt that I will make it…for good.   I decided not to give up, what may come!

Today, 17 years after marriage, when I look back to that panicky night, where I took that bold & beautiful decision of making my marriage happen and to love my man unconditionally accepting him with all the imperfections we have, today we rejoice our togetherness as the happiest couple.   The past was for sure rocky, rubbish and in fact rattling like in a crashing airplane at times.  The journey needed extra energy, strong determination and mountainous will power.   Above all the journey thought me who are our own people and who are fake.  It gave us real friends and family.   It threw away the most disgusting people out of our life who never understood our pure love despite of the closest relation we had with them.  

We are also blessed with a beautiful, intelligent and absolutely caring daughter.   He dotes on her as apple in his eye.  He gives his love and time like any other father would do. He pampers her most of the time and fights with her like the most adored dad in the world.  Above all, he had become my guardian angel, taking care of me when I am sick,  protecting me and loving me like no other man could do, and above all, making our life more meaningful and peaceful.

Today, the past is just a distant memory.  We have moved on from the ravages of time in the initial years of marriage.  Thanks to my mother and sisters, who stood by me like rock pillars of support and brothers-in-law guided me like my own brothers’.    The meaning of family really did hold well in our case.   

Today, we are part of several social causes, where we give back to the society.  Right from supporting underprivileged children and destitute elders and sick, we also cater to the needs of education, health care and environment of the society in the smallest ways we can.   The God’s calling for our service in the most humble way possible,  made us start our own service called ‘
Punaraja Services’  where my husband today runs to the needs of the destitute and orphaned dead…giving them decent funerals and good byes.    What else can I ask for from the man whom I loved so much that night without even knowing him completely?   Today, I feel the pride that the bold decision that I took that day several years ago, made my life truly meaningful.  Staying Blessed!

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